Tuesday, June 21, 2005

....hanging

hmmm, wala lang.

errr, my feeling is like so sentimental a while ago. Because of the rain... *winks

yeah, and i was like, alone... my sister's out on her school, my father's out on his job, my lolo's away shopping. uh huh. well, i'm too stubborn to go out right now.... ewan nakakatamad e. heheh. Kaya un, i just went on music-hoppin' ...then my eyes were trapped by the rain... my mind drippin' with thoughts... whirled.

....and this words appeared.

Nowhere in pain

Dripping, my inner tears swept by indulgence
Fallen, I am drowning in this innocence
Deluged, my heart pounding, over-beating your name
Chasing, I want to runaway, freezing in this game.

I am staring at nowhere
I think I am lost
I am screaming there's no one
Refuge at no cost

Immobilized, I was answered by that silence
Easing that I could forget your empty presence
Back when I was deaf, yet I could hear the pain
Desiring you to disappear but I'm in vain.

Uncertain, How could my innocence dripped me
Ripping my cold compassion, mocked by what I see
Back when I tried to erase you, yet I was blind
Witnessing all the frowns I don't want to find.

Drifting, Leaving you now is a shadow I left behind
There's a remedy shuttering my insanity on a rewind
Unchaining all that was left from yesterday
Suddenly, you revived my undead memories of today

I was mended, I was saved, and you were dispirited
Blinding me on how much you cared; yet you're mistreated
I'm sorry… I can’t find the real me that would drip you
I'm seeking for the perfect phase of the clock to tell I do

Now you stared at nowhere to find where I was missing
And I was there to find you where you were gone searching
To be where you are is where I am on that moment somewhere
Matter of promises of time to be at that perfect nowhere.



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yea.. those are the words.

hmmm. oh well... keep it kewl.

chiLL.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

tell me where it hurts

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling?
somebody, somebody, somebody leave your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby,Give me a chance
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

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blah.. ehem
MYMP.. weee... u see their song up there? wanna hear it? click this: Tell me Where it hurts

*whew

waaaaaaa... its so damn pretty right? haynku, saya saya saya. heheh.

LA LANG. hay, a lot of my 4th year dudes and dudettes are goin' to college classes na. AKO? wala.. maglalako na lang ako sa palengke. pede rin epza. hayyy.... HEHEHEH JOKE LANG. our classes will start on July 11, errr.. a month soon? Watever.

hanep, shift ata aku... from CE -> ECE... ewan ko ba, c ABEL kasi. chaka, i already got to think of it, so shift.. ah basta un. tapos ayaw pako 2ruan magdrive! BATET kaya!!!! sa states daw ako mag aral?! ano yon! kelan pa yon! waaaa! atat nko! feeling ko nga d na m22loy ung states na yan e. feeling ko naloko kame ng embassy, amppppp pinerahan lang ata kme ng embassy na yan e.. nde m2loy tuloy alis namen. SIOMAI. pero ok lng. happy pa rin naman dito. heheh.

hmm anu pa ba, konte na lang iilaw na char ko sa RO! weee, graduate na den weee... iL be satisfied and mkakaipon nko ulit weee. aus na aus. \m/

...news... anu pa ba... hmmm... zzzzz. tulugan na. *smile *wink

keep it kewl.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

FALL to pieces

I look away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the star
Back into your arms


....sigh.

i really like that song. *winks hmmm, so how's my blog doing? like yea, your okay. Hmmm, me? like yea, i do too. WaW, u know, i mark this day. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I've waken up early, this vacation... waaa. this is the earliest. But, i didn't complete my 8-12 hr sleep everyday. waaaaa!!!!! See, i slept 2am i think. I even forgot to play. And 2am is... late?! NAAAH, it's early. 6 am now is the supppahlate bedtime of mine. Guess why? Secret. hehehe. =^.^=

this day woke up, it was like, i was so inspired of... of.... c STRAW ulit. obvious ba... ahihihi. As of now, d ko pa naman cya pagpapalit kahit knino no. pano kaya sa college? Exactly saying, i'm really scared of meeting A NEW INSPIRATION. Get it? Like i don't want to meet somebody new, that could make me forget bout STRAW. Oh i don't know. Maybe i was just carried away. Maybe i've really fallen. And maybe i do love him. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. nagdrama ka nnmn hinayupak ka.

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. hmmm, onga naman. maybe i should do believe that. Or maybe i should not only SEE the present and the past and stick with it. Maybe i should open to this unknowing world. Let everything go.. and live. If something or someone comes, get over it, it could be good too, like the present or the past or it could even be better. *sykes. get it? icp ako ng icp ng ganyan d ko naman magawa sa sarili ko. KAY STRAW pa lang e. waaaa sob. alm ko na, kausapin ko n lng consencya ko. HEHEHE. ung parang sa safeguard. hehehe. lol. c JEWEL nagpcmula n2 eh. IDOL nga.

AKO: oi, natatanga nnman po ako. sob.
CONSENCYA: ket?
AKO: c STRAw hmf.
CONSENCYA: anu gnwa sau?
AKO: naaa, like, i keep falling faster. I waited all my life, to cross this line, to the only thing that's true. WAHAHA.
CONSENCYA: kanta kamo un.
AKO: uu lam ko. mali pa nga ata lyrics.
CONSENCYA: ewan, ok lang un at least my sense.
AKO: o cya, advise mo na ko. hmf, meh feelings ba ko talga kay straw? namimiss and mamimiss ko b tlga cya s college? ayw ko b tlga cya kalimutan?
CONSENCYA: ayan k nnmn, nagddeny k nnmn meh feelings ka, SUS, halos alm n nga ng lahat na meh feelings ka din sknya e.
AKO: anung DIN???
CONSENCYA: dba gs2 ka non?
AKO: ewan. d ko lam.
CONSENCYA: che bahala k nga. dba kaya k nmn nhulog, dahil s feelings nya?..na ewan mo kng totoo? pero sa tingin ko totoo. makakapagcnungaling ba un ng ganong katagal.
AKO: eh basta....
CONSENCYA: e bat nahulog ka? d k naman basta nahuhulog e.
AKO: onga no.
CONSENCYA: e haynku, bsta s tingin ko, labs mo n tlga un. KAYA cguro ayw mo kalimutan, kahit non pa n hurt k s mga nkkita mong pnaggagawa nia. sabi nga ni jewel, nkakagawa k ng stories n poems mo dahil malungkot ka. ANALYZE ko nga, onga no. d ko napancn puro naddeds mga story mo. chaka bsta.. haluz lahat sad ending.
AKO: e... dun lang kz msrp magsulat.. pagmalungkot...kramihan nga ng iba kong nagawa, nasulat ko dhl s pagkainis, pagkalungkot kay straw. sob.
CONSENCYA: ganon. haynku. e d mahal mo n nga.
AKO: yata.
CONSENCYA: ows. anung yata? mahal mo e.
AKO: ewan ko nga.
CONSENCYA: bat b puro ka ewan, bilis, sbhin mo na, issecret pa, ako dn naman ikaw. ulul.
AKO: eh
CONSENCYA: d mo mahal.
AKO: mahal ko no.
CONSENCYA: o.. nahuli dn kta. ungas k dn. so un, meh feelings k nga! and i think, mamimiss mo nga cya s college. hmm, tma ka, yaw mo nga mkameet ng ibng tao, kz, gs2 mo c STRAW prin. kala ko b gs2 mo ng kalimutan? e bat nag iinarte k dyang ayw mo na. d mo kaya?
AKO: yea. para kz meh pumipigil na wag ko n kalimutan. hayaan k n lng daw na mawala ang feelings ko ng kusa para mas mdali dba. saya saya p nmn ng feeling ko ngaun. waehehehehe.
CONSENCYA:tama hmm, pero lam mo, tma dn ung cnbi mo s taas, mag open k s mameet mong tao, bka humigit pa un kay straw, na lalong mkkpagpahappy sau.
AKO: yea.. i think. pero sa ngaun, wala pa.
CONSENCYA: ows? e pano kng bglang dumating ang 2nay n prince charming mo?
AKO: waaa sna c straw?
CONSENCYA: hehe, wish ko nga rin sana cya nga wahahahaha. haynku. bsta, kaya mo yan. i know u could get over it. face it.
AKO: salamaszs. hehe. pero yea... bsta mag oopen aku, pero pag wlang dumating na iba, pero nkalimutan ko cya... hay wla nnmn akong inspiration. ehehe. pero i think, d ko cya mkakalimutan tlga. C CG b nung ntpos ung feelings ko s knya, nkalimutan ko?? NDE. i mean, nde ko cya nkalimutan, literally, kz we're like friends now. O DBa, e d pag nkalimutan k n c Straw e d, prang gnun rin bagsak nun. hehhe.
CONSENCYA: just do ur thing... sa tingin ko, s dme b nmn ng dude sa mapua, d mo pa kaya mkalimutan c straw?
AKO: iba pa rin ang nkikita lang dude, sa nkakavives na dude.
CONSENCYA: onga. hay. anu kya mngyri sau? sa ngaun boto prin ako kay straw. chmpre, ako IKAW. eh d labs ko dn cya. HEHEHE.
AKO: T_T che bhla k nga.

zzzzzz. well ok, it's off, i've been analyzing things and it's over. siomai, muka nkong straw. @_@
wahehehe. hay nko tma n nga. npabayaan ko n priestess ko sa ragnarok. 2 stinkin' lvls to go at d nko msydong mag aadik s ragna. hehe. un lang tlga habol ko e, kht mkaisang 99 lng aku auz na. UU nmn no, sayang pera ko, nawaldas ipon ko dahil s hinayupak n ragna n yan. pero memorable yan.... bket kaya?! secret. /e4 /gg /kis

ciao.