the waves

uhm. kewl. I like this day. *winks things are like... OKAY. way-too, two-thumbs up. Well, me and my peepz, yeah my friends, went to water camp, AGAIN. This time, it's different. The last time i went, yea it's like fun too, though, oh i don't know, this outing invaded my mind with a different wave.

FIRST. Yeah, i was somewhat bored and feeling lame at home and to go somewhere else. Nerilyn invited me, at first i was not that sure.. because, yeah.. i was feeling so lame. LAMERZ. Abel pleaded me to come too. THen he said, it sounds corny but meaningful... he said to me, "tayong group of friends ^_^ di ba ikaw pa naman nagsbi nde msya pag kulang." hehehe. Corny pero touching diba.

NEXT. So, i went into my nerves. I was tolerated. Oh well. IT might be fun. I wore my new sneakerz. haha. i like the way i walked with it. haha... wala lang. Then, we reached the place. Saw bunch of friends... families. I find it warm. OH NOT the feeling of hot and drenchy thirst-quaking feeling... I mean... WARM inside. Maybe... i was strucked. I miss our family gatherings. In ALabang... where the GARCIA's are always hanging out in times of Christmas and New Year. YEah, i miss that... My cousins... relatives... THE MONEY =).... my crush. WAPAK. meh crush kz ako don. pero d ko insan a. HEHEHE. pero occasional crush lang. ^_^

NEXT to NEXT. *rewind. SO, we were smimming and hanging by the pool... Neri whispered. "Jozel natatakot ako." I asked, why. She said, she heard her lola said, "Ginawa ko tong handaan na to, para kahit wala na ko, maaalala nyo ko." Yeah... scary like a... premonition. But i told her not to be scared, telling her, "Hindi magkakatoo un. Wag ka magicp ng ganyan." *sigh. But you know, i really hate words like that, oh you know, giving premonitions. IF I WAS HER, well i would feel the same.

END. bummer... party's over. Before that, iZZ's crew and the guys of our class went also. Too bad they didn't swim. and of course, TOO gOoD that Jerome was with them telling me some news bout somethin' ....never mind. =)

...then of course, we waved goodbye in FULL THANKS...to Neri's family and tropz... to the waves of that Evening dawn. AWWW love that word. EVening dawn. Sounds kewl and relaxing. Like... elegant. *winks

...BTW we're planning NEXt. Hmmm. ENCHANTED KINGDOM... lol. how i wish it could happen. Our budgets our crumpled, we got no G's man! lol.

...and my mind's crumpled still thinkin of STRAW whoah not again!

...well... my body's crumpled too and i need to sleep. It's like i'm so dizzy. SHeesh it's 1:30 am! Another hour and i would lose my control. Like my brain's gonna explode losing all the nerves for short, BANGAG nanaman ako.

*so, door close. ciao.

blurred and bored

er.

Fixin' few stuffs here in my online crib... got new craps and words, quizzes for Christ' sake. It's just that i'm so bored and i want to express my boredom. *yawn

here u go...

Your Japanese Name Is...

Rai Konoe

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English

20% Yankee

10% Dixie

10% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Irish Name Is...

Avril McGrath

What's your Irish Name?

*snore....

*winks... ciao

cold cold heart

I tried so hard, my dear, to show
that you're my every dream
Yet you're afraid each thing I do
Is just some evil scheme

A memory from your lonesome past
keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

Another love, before my time,
made your heart sad an' blue,
and so my heart is paying now
for things I didn't do

In anger, unkind words are said
that make the teardrops start
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
And melt your cold, cold heart?

There was a time when I believed
that you belonged to me
but now I know your heart is shackled
to a memory

The more I learn to care for you
the more we drift apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

......hey! I'm here for another song again. it inspired me again. It's a new song... i found it in some galore thingy... BASTA. I'm up to songs right now, not like before, i always post some fishy quizzes. HEHE. If you know me.... you'll understand and get the catch on why i like the song. HMMM. You know, i am really astonished in the things i hear today. I don't know what to do. As if some foolish burst out of nowhere making me a FOOL or something. Blah! A while ago i ask an advce from a friend. He's Aaron. I asked him things bout lovin' oh yeah, tellin me that... for him, love will come naturally. I shouldn't go for guys who doesn't understands me. I shouldn't go for guys who doesn't make me smile. I should go for guys who loves and understands me. I should go for guys who makes my every single snap happy. RIGHT. Yeah, somethin' snap out of after he said that. he's right. SIGH. BUT WHAT ABOUT STRAW?! like duh... i can't just dump him. YEAH he does make me smile. YEAH he understands me. BUT YEAH he also brings the frown out of me. AGAIN SAYING, IF ONLY HE KNEW.

AS IF. I also taught of somethin, well... a lot of girls really do mean their feelings to their crushes or somethin. HUH. BUT me. I mean, literally, i don't say my feelings to that someone, I DON'T SAY A WORD STRAIGHT UNLESS not until the person will say the magic word too. SHUCKZ. DAYDREAMING eh? EH PANO KUNG PREHO KME NG STYLE? ASA. WHy should i carry the problem? I'm a girl! like ABEL said, nde ako ASA. Baliktad. SIgh. ACK! KUNG PDE KO LANG SBHN NG DARECHO LAHAT E. MEH PACODE NAME CODE NAME PA KZ NLALAMAN. T_T

oh well...

die if u want 2 know.

and para kay STRAW... paki linaw plz. bad 3p aku sa malabo. kng ayw mo sakin paki sabi na. Kung gs2 mo skn... wag mo na palabuin. tsk...tsk...

A memory from your lonesome past
keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

The Right kind of Wrong

The Right Kind Of Wrong


I know all about,
Yea about your reputation
And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Every time that I'm with you, ah
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can fight it any more
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Lovin you, That isn't really something I should do
I shouldn't wanna spend my time with you ya
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Ya, baby you're the right kind of wrong

It might be a mistake
A mistake I'm makin'
But what your givin I am happy to be takin
'Cause all that will make me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms

They say your somethin I should do without
They don't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Lovin you, That isn't really something I should do
I shouldn't wanna spend my time with you ya
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Ya, baby you're the right kind of wrong

I should try to run but I just can't seem to
'Cause every time I run your the one I run to
Can't do without what you do to me,
I don't care if I'm in to deep yeah


....................HEY! that one up there is a song. OKAY. I like it. wanna hear it? check it out: The Right kind of Wrong ^_^

Well hey, i'm really runnin' out of time. I've already enrolled *right. July somethin' is our freakin' first day of classes. I also have a crib to live in... like a dorm or somethin. I think Abel is goin to hang out by that place to. *sigh

Hmmm, i'm tryin' to resist ragnarok ya know... and i think i am doin' it. BUT I'm MISSING it! hahaha! OF COURSE... I'm missing straw. i wonder if i'm ever goin to see him again. WISH SO. ANd i also wanted to tell everythin RIGHT NOW. BUT STILL, oh yeah... i CAN't. I don't know. I just can't. Maybe i'm not really not just the type of girl who speaks out her heart. Maybe i'm the kind of girl who keeps everythin' deep inside. That's why i'm feeling the pain. WOAH! maybe not. because almost everybody knows WHO IS STRAW. hahaha. AND I THINK, even he knows who's he?! wak! DON't care, at least he's still not gettin any confirmations. MAN! i wonder what could happen in collge? Oh you know.... would i find someone new? WAAAAA AYOKO gs2 ko cya parin. HAHAHa. KUNG ALM MO LANG KZ E. T_T ack.

but yea, baby... ARE YOU or AM I the right kind of wrong?

Troubled.

waaa. hey. I'm troubled right now okay... shuckz, i can't concentrate playing ragnarok. That's why i left it BoT MoDe. HEHE. yeah, I miss someone. OF COURSE IT's straw. WAA. It's always him. Still saying, IF ONLY HE KNEW EVERYTHIN'!

Hmmm. college is near. I'm scared and thrilled?! Okay. Get to meet new peepz. But what i'm scared bout is... not about the peepz out there okay, it's the place... the way i will go there. I DON't know how to get there ALONE. I already have the plan on living wit my friends near our colleges. WAAA. and... Mapua's enrollement in CE is on APril 15. so near huh?! TRI-SEM... waaa! how would i manage to leave wit a tri-sem univ? I AM A VACATION MANIAC!

uhm.. i love my current layout. I MEAN IT. AS IN LOOOOVE. I WILL BE A FOOL! RIGHT! i would be a fool for STRAW like in kinda things:

1. fool on not telling what i feel
2. fool on being scared of our parting
3. fool on locking my feelings and forgetting you
4. fool on not portraying what i feel
5. fool on not noticing how much u care

AHHHH! is it a negative or a positive? HECK! anywei... me and my friends had a hang out by a resort yesterday. Like it was kewl... i wonder if i get to those stuffs and see them again on college. I know it can happen...

oh hey btw, read this stuff... it's creepy.

Message: Subject: UE SCANDAL
Message: i have a story to tell.....
i was a college freshman...
during my first sem. i had this
experience.....

i have a class in the comm.dept.,,,we had a group
presentation....so we reserved the auditorium.......

when we got in,the lights were already
turned on
and i dropped my bag and set up my
laptop while
the others fixed the projectors and the
posters.....we noticed that one of our
group
member was not around....i looked for her
outside
and i saw her sitting on a bench..she was
having
a
smoke and looked pale...i let her in the
audi cause
the teacher was on her way....she didnt
want to
come in.she revealed to me that she can
see
ghosts and other supernatural beings that
no on
else can.......

according to her...there was a girl at the
ceiling
that kept on laughing and was pointing at
me...she
said she follows me around,and kept on
swinging
from beam to beam.....

as we reached the door,she grabbed my
arm.i
saw
that there was a wet puddle right next to
my bag
on the chair.suddenly something small
fell from the
ceiling and landed on the puddle,it was
a
drop of
liquid.she told me not to look up the
ceiling...but i
was curious...as i looked up i saw a girl
with black
ragged clothes,she has yellow teeth as if
she
didn't
brush her teeth since she was born,she
has long
unruly hair that looked like it cant be
brushed no
matter how you try.she was mocking and
was
laughing at me...she kept on pointing at
me.she
was drooling,and her drool was color
yellow and it
has an awful smell,it was slimy.i got my
things
and
went out of the room,i threw away the
bag
that
has
her drool on it.i didnt want any memories
of what
happened that day.but i kept seeing her
in my
room.i didn't know what to do.i found out
later that
before the school stood there,it was a big
house.she lives in the big house and her
father
didn't want her to go out of their mansion
so she
was locked in a room,she died and her
body was
not found,some say she became
crazy,some say
her body was in the walls of the room and
she
loves to play on the ceiling wandering
around,swinging.the room later on
became the
comm.dept of the school.

i realized that she wanted to let the
people know
what happened to her,because when i
began to
tell
people,she didn't visit me in my room
anymore.the
problem is that the person i told about
her
also
have to spread her story.


so post this message again and also send
it to
other people..if u ignore this and just
read
it,she
will visit you in your room and follow u
wherever
you
will go by swinging on the ceiling.don't
ignore
this,u
dont want to see her face.....BELIEVE
ME......you'll regret it.....keep on sending
and
posting NOW...u must be done after an
hour or
else....

NOW WHAT?
heck i'm out.

hey.

sssskewl's out. graduation's over. Yeah last April 3. I forgot to write to yah. Well, i'm damn exausted okay. HEHE. ANywei, here's another sitch... quizzes... hehe ung iba malabong ako ^_^


You are the warrior girl.You are the type
that can start a fight and win.You are very
strong and can beat anyone up (but just don't
^_~) and some people can be afraid of you but
alot of people admire your strength and want to
be just like you well the people that want to
fight.You can defend yourself very easily and
can probably handle some kind of weapon.You
have a short temper and get angry
easily but you can be really nice at times
^_^and once a fighter always a fighter.


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you represent the dreams in life. you are laid back
and also dream alot.


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IN VAIN

stubborn. dimmed. shadowed. Things are getting weirder and weirder for me. I am desperate. I want to search for something. An inspiration. A voice that would clear up everything. A soul that could diminish all the sadness in me.

Mind's getting stuck up and it's like a dizz. My family... suffocating a problem. Who keeps on thinkin' and carrying the thing? Me. Who tries to realize everything to make things clear? Me. I AM SO CONFUSED. My thoughts are low. I can't think of a MOVE. I CAN'T MOVE. Why? I don't know. Maybe I am in vain... pretending that I could carry the burden all along alone.

Alone? I think. My sister's like a carefree person... yeah i know she's too young to realize things. Of course she would be dependent because there's someone to lean on. I remembered her saying to me, "Ate wag ka na umalis dito pagcollege ka. Hindi ko kaya." I was... thinking twice, if i would continue my plans trying to be independent in an apartment wit my friends at college. What would my family be... when i already leave? Would we have a gap or something? OR WOULD I HAVE THE GAP on them?

I am so foolish, that i don't know, what to do. I wanted to tell everything i feel to my sister... I don't know if she would listen to me. IF SHE WOULD MARK MY WORDS. HEY sis, our family's about to blow.... what's up?! Yeah... But i can't exactly.. rightly, say that. I don't know if she would get every single thing clear. I while ago... I mean this last minute, before i had type this fishy tag, we had a fight. I AM TRYING TO SAY "THE PROBLEM" to my sister, i think she's not really interested. She explained to me what our dad said. Uhuh... yeah, brainwashed... she was so young that she couldn't get every snap of it. I also tried to ask my lolo bout "the problem" he did some smiling thingy... and some words... then he couldn't answer... then my dad popped out his words and he did the explaining.. he smiled at lolo... MAN! I AM NOT THAT STUPID TO KNOW WHAT"S behind THAT smile and reasons! Father's giving me a brainwash in defending lolo.... Do you think i wouldn't get what they meant?! MAN PEOPLE! IF ONLY YOU KNEW WHAT"S THE PROBLEM! The only people who knew my prob is my closest friends, NEri, Abel and Charm. SO going back to me and my sister's fight, i taunted her lots of times... trying to shout... "BAHALA KA NA PAG WALA AKO.. WALA PAKIALAMAN.....WAG MO MASABI SABI SAKIN NA D MO KAYA. BAHALA KA." yeAH, somewhat like that. ANd she shouted back. "OO.. talaga, pagdadasal ko pa. THANK YOU." As if she's talking sarcastic. If only my sister feels what i feel. I was really hurt. She doesn't know how hard it is for me... ASA KASI PALAGI. She doesn't know how to feel being depended on and being the carrier of the burden. MAN! Ah!i don't know what to say... I am so irritated right now...

Heads up... til then....