watch the number

DRAW101W - 2.25
ENG102 - 1.75
HUM114 - 1.75
MATH101L - 2.00
MATH102 - 1.75
MATH103 - 2.50
NSTP102 - 1.50
PE102 - 1.75

Weighted Average: 1.92

...oh my. hehehe. weeee. im sooo happy. My grades paved up weee. yey. ^^ i guess i'm leaving Mapua in a good condition. yey yey *cheers
yea, well before, it was 2.19. ^^ yey i finally reached "one" i can't believe it. ^^

-errr yesterday? its a 17... -wla lang. hehehe. I can feel Christmas so much...
-errr later? i'm going back to my alma mater. Why? We were invited to attend their lantern parade. *cheers BUT the bad thing is... tinatamad aku. chaka required na isuot color green. WOAH. I don't have anything green to wear. All my green stuffs are sort of "pambahay." Haynko maghahalungkat na lang aku. Well, perhaps i'm going to see my old classmates again... hmmm. heheh. anu kya mngyyri.

hehhe. weee wla lang... saya ko. weeeee.

*toast for me
*cheers

resurrected

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
Will you give in to me?
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
Will you give in to me?

....yea im alive! finally the disturbance is over... we're on vacation... weee.. im on evacuating mapua... happy? nahhh. im a little sad... i don't want to leave my studies, my new freshie friends... but i have to. why am i leaving? errr... because of the stupid states thingy. you know that. my insterview is on january 10, 2006... bummer.. i think im goin to be out for 3-6months... i do hope it wont excede that time span... i think i wont take it. FOR SURE im going to miss all of my... err... miss all of them and that. WELL of course my only one... aaaaaaaaaa will i take it? that long... woah. I'll miss him. really...really...really. damn.


errr,,, snap it out.. well, uhm let's be smiley-smiley... hmm, yesterday, our last day in Mapua.. well, i don't know if i did good in the departmentals. And i'm in danger... yea, my analytic geom to be exact. OUR LONGTESTS' total is over 400. the passing is 240. guess what's my total... it's 239! waa crap! well anyway i hope im going to pass it. Hmm, oh btw, I've received gifts! hiyehey!


the box is from Bernice, the pen from Chris and the diary from Mazel. Bunches of thanks!!! =)

1...2...3... here it goes? ENCHANTED KINGDOM!!! weee! me and my friends went there yesterday after the exam.
but before that happened.. it's an adventure. haha. crap crap! we left the campus at about 2pm and went straight to cavite to pick up my.. uh.. Him... hehe. before we reached the stupid place, the traffic daze went all over us so it's a long journey and we were like exhausted when we dropped by him at around errr... 4:30pm. HAH! latey late! Then we continued our oh-so-enchanted-adventure. wahahha. we almost got lost in getting there. guess what time we arrived? 8:00pm!!! oh my God! we were like drop dead sick! but our weariness dropped dead too when we entered the enchanting place. HAHAHHA. (enchanting... hehehe. *glitter *glitter)



3 RIDES! man! its okay anyway... first we headed for the anchor's away. then we went sliding and puddling through the log jam and finally made our finalle.. to the wheel of fate. dumdum.. it's still okay. at least we're happy. I mark that day. I have deeper reasons... you want to know? I can't write it here. Well, a summary of it is a biiiiiG thank you to Robert. ^^ (cya si HIM) hehehe. WELL of course bunches of thanks again to my friendssss for the moments. heheh. ehem.. Exactly 10 in the evening we left the spot. we went home... I arrived at 11:30. heheh. and BOOM i dropped at my bed... sleeeeeeping. sweetdreams to me.


"hold on to me.dont let go.i wont."

i lived and i died

*bump

again and again and again it has been a long time. AMP muntik ng mapanis tong site na toh. hehehe.

i've changed the layout... and called it "i lived and i died."

OMG.

I've died already? well it's not literally speaking okay. It's like, i've died for some sort of feeling before that despairs me and was reincarnated again... to start a new one... basta un.

So what's the latest crap?
-i don't know. Haha. I don't have a crush on "Devil Eyes" anymore. hehehe. haynko. crush crush. nonsense. kay ano na lang ako... kay.... kay....762. heheh? gets? gets? solid EHHH. taob. chempre... he's the reason why i've died and then again... lived.... nakanang. muka mo!!!!!

-1st week of 2nd qtr at college. GOTHNESS! new classes and mates again! BBye DevilEyes... (o d ko na crush... tropa lang) hehe. BBye Professor Severino. Oh I don't know. Thinking rationally, That's the most strict professor I've ever met. One wrong move and YOUR DEAD! The hell she is like the devil. Do you what's "tense"? WELL you could really feel the meaning of it if she's your devil. BUT, you know, Our new professor in Humanities (well she's on Hum113, the new one is HUm114)is the opposite on the other side! Smiling face and what-ev's. BUT I DON't JUST GET IT. I LIKE THE OLD DEVIL better than the NEW ANGEL. huh? ...never mind.

-SEVENTEEN. Ano un? wala lang.

-2.19 -gothness that's my final grade in the 1st qtr. i passed yey.

-A BOY! waaa! you know what, really, my new friends always gag me that I'm a... BOY. GOTHNESS!!!! waaaa! I know it's a joke or something. But sometimes, I don't like the sound of it... babae po ako. guRRRLLL. boyish lang pero... straight girl. =D

-so, what more? ....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

hey... check this craps. These are (as usual) my results. hehe.

Girl Name: Queen Nocturna

Guy
Name: Lord Lestat

*You will kill an
enemy in the near future*

You tend to hide
behind your squeeky clean image. You hope that
no one will reveal you past but you have know
idea that everyone won't mind as much as you
think.


What Is Your Goth Name?
brought to you by Quizilla

A heavenly princess


what you should see in the mirror
brought to you by Quizilla

You can sense death nearby. Whenever someone is on
the verge of death within a certain distance
from you, you can sense it. You don't know
where it happens, all you know is that is was
close by.


If you had a 6th sense, what would it be? (pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

...okay.. OVER.

DevilEyes

....hey!

it's been a long time again. tagal ko ng di post dito ng meh sense na post? OMG. hehe. well what happened to me anywei these days? a couple of craps and a couple of gaps. gaps? ewan wala lang.


hmmm.... my studies? asteeg. malapit na finals... bilis noh? chempre batang mapuan. hehe. naka resbak nko sa mga di ko feel na scores sa subjects ko. asteeg aus! errr.... my ragnarok life? waaaa...abel is leaving the worLddd. too bad... I'm gonna miss hanging out with him onLiNe... killing and taunting his Blacksmith. hehehe. errr and also, we watched a play, oh i forgot when... basta di ko maapreciate ung ganda. i don't know... even though it's musical and it's all about the disney animations. wala lang. hihi.

DevilEyes? the hell what about it? hmmm, as days on my college life continue to exist... hay, chempre, i can't resist having a crush? dame nga eh. wekeke. PACUTE mode. hahaha. joke. pero bat gnun dumadame 1st impression saking... tomboy daw aku waaaaaaaaaaaa! -_- guRL aku. wehehe. guRRRL... *ehem ok, back on the devil eye thing, err crushes? yea? so what about it? chempre meh top 5. Some are from the dorm and some are from the campus. i won't tell WHERE in the campus. hihihi. Chempre ung top 1 crush ko e... errr... wala lang. asteeg cya. ^-^ eh anu connection ng devileyes? wala lng nkaka2wa ung eyes nia. hahaha. bsta amporma, parang ewan pa mga expression. \m/

anywei... wla lng un. Crush lang un. wekeke.

uhm, what am i doing now? well, exactly saying i'm on our computer lab right now. i've finished early on the seatwork that's why i'm free to do whatever i want to. yey! kung meh ragna lang dito.... bka favorite ko na tong subject na to. hihihi.
bat nga pla gnun? kahit maglaro and magpakaadik sa ragna... aus prin grades ko? uyyyy mayabang. hehehe. ^-^V

errr. okay? whatever. see ya round.


chiLL \m/

siLenced

...been quite quiet for while. Yea, my pc was broken.... T_T pero chmpre gawa na. wahihihihi. Anyway, I'm not at my crib right now but of course... sa DORM! welllll ako yata nagpapayaman ng shop dito. wehehe. chmpre... ADIKS sukeeeee. ^_^

oh, hey i got this personality thing at friendster. It's about the march people.......

MARCH: Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate
Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest,
generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and
serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others.
Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and
returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves
traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in
choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically
talented. Loves special things. Moody.


totoo ba? OO SEXY AKO. haha joke. ung iba 22o... ung iba nde.... half half eheheh.
Anyway... i got nothing to say. Well, I'm sleepy and all that... err not really, i don't care if i have classes tomorrow.... ehhh wala lang. sarap tlga tumutok sa PC. weeeeeee. x5 pa sa Ragna. weeeeeee. anu ba yan bka maging 2 na 99 ko. waaa. ^_^ joke. hehehe. errr, Abel... I mean, me and him were almost lost AGAIN at intramuros. We're like the stupidest people here. Mga taga Cavite talga... ahihihi. Tapos aun, lapit n fiesta sa... TANZa... waw. FOODTRIP. =D

*ehem. ok .... maybe i need to go now..? gabi na eeee meh pasok pko bukas. Actually ayoko pumasok kse tnatamad ako. ahahahah. pero kelangan e.....

bbye...

mixed up

blah blah blah. yeayea, i'm here again to patch things up. ^_^

This week is like a big question to me. yea. It's just that I've known that I'm leaving for US sooner. I don't know, I've heard that it would be on the February. OMG. So it means, I can't finish my 1styr of college. Maybe upto 2nd sem though. I don't know... what gives anyway. Come what may, even though i would repeat my freshie year all over again, i don't mind. All i know is that, I would graduate. hehe...

oh well, last thursday also, I've watched the MusicMix'05 campus tour concert.


Live performances by:

Spongecola


SugarFree


M.Y.M.P.


and...

HALE


...hehehe, Champ! wahahah! he's so... goodlooking. wehehehe. =D
...sigh. how i wish i stared at him longer. hahah.

anyway, well i'm mixed up, yea, going back to the main topic. yeayea mixxxxxed up. I think my life would be messed up before I finally became rich on my own. waaaa. nangarap nanaman. haynku. ewan? shux. well, come what may... i just need to be ready to face everything. Yea. How bout theeeee love? oh my. i don't know what to say.... it's the matter of time. I don't know if he'll wait. It may either take time or quite a while. Patience? But what gives, it aint my decision... sigh. oh well, i just need to face everything sooner, really. If it's good, well then... that's nice. If it's bad, aww never mind. basta bahala naaaaaaaa.

tsktsk...

bestowed

"...it was given... my word... my worth... i don't know when would it be finally yours..."

amp. heheh. im back after a week again. yeah a week and im weak! --, exhausted from the damned college crappy tests. ah. hehehe. but it's okay because of some reason... wahaha. hmmm. hey take a look at this pic. It's an image of a butterfly i got when i was studying 12 past midnight.... ^-^



shucks... well because of boredom and "nde-ko-maintindihan-ung-pnagaaralan-ko" ahmmm... hehehe this is what i did....





ehem. well, during our computer lessons... well, if i don't get the lesson right, sigh.... eto na lang gnagawa ko. internet-alt-tab-mode. ahahaha.



hihihi. well of course, i did have a friend out there. Her name is Chris. She's...uhm.. so nice, so good, pretty, approachable.... basta asteeeg cya at dakilang adeeek dn sa pc chaka kay... fafa champ. mwahahaha. *ehem. here's the girl...



^_^ hihihi. wla lang. ilabupeople. wahihihi. errr... anywei. bout my life? yea it's okay.... basta. ahihih. it's upon the title okay. ciao....

happy ending?

do you believe in happy endings? sigh... how i really wish... yea for some reason... these days that had passed, well... i'm really not so "in" it. i don't know... things are really confusing and diminishing my thoughts. Like, there's something behind every word that i say.... that he said.... well I was right? yea.... but even before he said it, i've realized it before he told it to me. why? i really don't know what to say. ALL that i remember which i've told him were the words... "bat ganon, nsaktan ata ako...?"

*ehem

anywei, let's not talk about it. i really feel so bad, the hell with me, i don't know.. suddenly i felt affected? ohh i know you really don't get the catch on what i'm saying here. waah never mind.

hayyyyyyyyyyyyy. HEY, got pics here. well let me take you on a tour. RIGHT. This is the crib which im hanging to right now... my dorm...on nightmode



and this is us... hanging out. That's me, naz and abel.



well, of course these are my friends... of course, i still see them. =)










...there there. pix to spice up this crappy site. hehehe... oh my.

...i really don't feel like talking now. anywei... maybe i better go.

...so much for my happy ending.

Seven Days

Trapped. Poor little me who had been trapped. I could no longer escape that world. COLLEGE. Yea, i know it's fun. FUN only if we're talking about the trips and the hang-outs... but a real PAIN if I tell you the real thing.



JESUS CHRIST! waah! I cannot believe I already survived the first Seven Days of my life in Manila... behind those walls... those old old old walls that lies beneath the Philippine History. Behind those walls, lives.... me.

Well, hehe, if you want to visit me... well u better not. -_- joke. hehe. THE HELL WITH ME FOR I DON't KNOW THE EXACT ADDRESS WHERE MY DORMITORY stands. ahihihi. Well, anywei, i got to catch things up out there, good thing is, my two close friends lives there too, well, Naz and Abel. Sad to say, Abel is sooo bored and lonely living in that place. OH i don't know. But i do understand his situation. Well, I'm planning to leave that place too when my 2nd yr in college comes. Yeah, I'm changing my scheds so that when I commute, It won't be a hindrance or a problem and stuff. *Sykes Guess what? This was the 1st week of my independence. Well, it's so damn hard alright. I get to prepare my own food, my own clothes, my own stuffs... managed to budget my money w/c i don't actually do because all i want is to spend spend spend... oh my. hehe. I'm really a stubborn timid girl HALF-way back in my highschool life. OH WHAT GIVES.. that's me. hehe. BUT I'm trying to change... and i hope i could.

MEETING NEW PEOPLE. YEah, not a problem. THANK GOD, my 1st batch of classmates were like my old classmates. But of course, still, my old classmates were better in highschool. hihihi. Well, my college classmates...They were actually SABOG. hehe. I have new friends which i go with, hmm.. Chris and Mazel... they were the two friends which i always go with. Bernice, Ivy, Donna and Jamaica are the others whom i also spend time with. WELL, we're the only girls in class after all. hehe. Woah, EVEN NAZ, hangs out with us, he's a dude who's where the girls are. HEHE. How bout a new crush? well there is... Chris and Mazel likes him too. ahahah. His name? SHIKRET.(PANOOO C STRAW??? HMF. CYA PAREN LABS KO, wla tatapat don. ahihihi.) An admirer? well, naz told me someone is asking for my number to him. @_@ wahh. I wonder... THE PROFESSORS? Yeah pretty good. THE COLLEGE? one hella good world.

YESTERDAY: woah, OF course, sunday afternoon, I planned to go home because i have no classes on a Monday, which is today. I'm leaving later at around 5-6pm to go back in that walls. Oh man. HMMM... what happened yesterday? I wonder if I'm goin to post it here. hehehe. BASTA NAKAUWI AKO. UN LANG. ask me, if ur doubting on the real thing that happened. hehehe. \m/

ALL i can say now is...

SEVEN DAYS.

over me

think.think. hmm.
i was reading my past posts a while ago... not my "accidentally-blind" posts, well, it's the "www.ringwraith.radpages.com" posts.
*shucks
i can't believe i wrote those! man, i was like... questioning, did i really wrote this? as if i didn't... yea! really. -_-
man! some of the posts were really confusing. @_@
oh well,
hold on! look at my layout. @_@ so it's new. i hope you won't mind with the layout i used. hehe.
hey, 1 week to go, pretty sure i'm steppin to college. whew, im really not that excited nor anxious or somethin bout it. Hell, im goin to experience the things my friends are experiencing right now. THEY SAY... IT'S HAPPY AND FREE... EXCEPT FOR THE ASSIGNMENT CRAPS WHICH IS LIKE duh AND tsktsk. heheh. Will i find my prince charming there? whack meee waaaa! hehe.

well, see ya anywei. byerrrz.

jozel=)

....hanging

hmmm, wala lang.

errr, my feeling is like so sentimental a while ago. Because of the rain... *winks

yeah, and i was like, alone... my sister's out on her school, my father's out on his job, my lolo's away shopping. uh huh. well, i'm too stubborn to go out right now.... ewan nakakatamad e. heheh. Kaya un, i just went on music-hoppin' ...then my eyes were trapped by the rain... my mind drippin' with thoughts... whirled.

....and this words appeared.

Nowhere in pain

Dripping, my inner tears swept by indulgence
Fallen, I am drowning in this innocence
Deluged, my heart pounding, over-beating your name
Chasing, I want to runaway, freezing in this game.

I am staring at nowhere
I think I am lost
I am screaming there's no one
Refuge at no cost

Immobilized, I was answered by that silence
Easing that I could forget your empty presence
Back when I was deaf, yet I could hear the pain
Desiring you to disappear but I'm in vain.

Uncertain, How could my innocence dripped me
Ripping my cold compassion, mocked by what I see
Back when I tried to erase you, yet I was blind
Witnessing all the frowns I don't want to find.

Drifting, Leaving you now is a shadow I left behind
There's a remedy shuttering my insanity on a rewind
Unchaining all that was left from yesterday
Suddenly, you revived my undead memories of today

I was mended, I was saved, and you were dispirited
Blinding me on how much you cared; yet you're mistreated
I'm sorry… I can’t find the real me that would drip you
I'm seeking for the perfect phase of the clock to tell I do

Now you stared at nowhere to find where I was missing
And I was there to find you where you were gone searching
To be where you are is where I am on that moment somewhere
Matter of promises of time to be at that perfect nowhere.


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yea.. those are the words.

hmmm. oh well... keep it kewl.

chiLL.

tell me where it hurts

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling?
somebody, somebody, somebody leave your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby,Give me a chance
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

---

blah.. ehem
MYMP.. weee... u see their song up there? wanna hear it? click this: Tell me Where it hurts

*whew

waaaaaaa... its so damn pretty right? haynku, saya saya saya. heheh.

LA LANG. hay, a lot of my 4th year dudes and dudettes are goin' to college classes na. AKO? wala.. maglalako na lang ako sa palengke. pede rin epza. hayyy.... HEHEHEH JOKE LANG. our classes will start on July 11, errr.. a month soon? Watever.

hanep, shift ata aku... from CE -> ECE... ewan ko ba, c ABEL kasi. chaka, i already got to think of it, so shift.. ah basta un. tapos ayaw pako 2ruan magdrive! BATET kaya!!!! sa states daw ako mag aral?! ano yon! kelan pa yon! waaaa! atat nko! feeling ko nga d na m22loy ung states na yan e. feeling ko naloko kame ng embassy, amppppp pinerahan lang ata kme ng embassy na yan e.. nde m2loy tuloy alis namen. SIOMAI. pero ok lng. happy pa rin naman dito. heheh.

hmm anu pa ba, konte na lang iilaw na char ko sa RO! weee, graduate na den weee... iL be satisfied and mkakaipon nko ulit weee. aus na aus. \m/

...news... anu pa ba... hmmm... zzzzz. tulugan na. *smile *wink

keep it kewl.

FALL to pieces

I look away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the star
Back into your arms

....sigh.

i really like that song. *winks hmmm, so how's my blog doing? like yea, your okay. Hmmm, me? like yea, i do too. WaW, u know, i mark this day. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I've waken up early, this vacation... waaa. this is the earliest. But, i didn't complete my 8-12 hr sleep everyday. waaaaa!!!!! See, i slept 2am i think. I even forgot to play. And 2am is... late?! NAAAH, it's early. 6 am now is the supppahlate bedtime of mine. Guess why? Secret. hehehe. =^.^=

this day woke up, it was like, i was so inspired of... of.... c STRAW ulit. obvious ba... ahihihi. As of now, d ko pa naman cya pagpapalit kahit knino no. pano kaya sa college? Exactly saying, i'm really scared of meeting A NEW INSPIRATION. Get it? Like i don't want to meet somebody new, that could make me forget bout STRAW. Oh i don't know. Maybe i was just carried away. Maybe i've really fallen. And maybe i do love him. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. nagdrama ka nnmn hinayupak ka.

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. hmmm, onga naman. maybe i should do believe that. Or maybe i should not only SEE the present and the past and stick with it. Maybe i should open to this unknowing world. Let everything go.. and live. If something or someone comes, get over it, it could be good too, like the present or the past or it could even be better. *sykes. get it? icp ako ng icp ng ganyan d ko naman magawa sa sarili ko. KAY STRAW pa lang e. waaaa sob. alm ko na, kausapin ko n lng consencya ko. HEHEHE. ung parang sa safeguard. hehehe. lol. c JEWEL nagpcmula n2 eh. IDOL nga.

AKO: oi, natatanga nnman po ako. sob.
CONSENCYA: ket?
AKO: c STRAw hmf.
CONSENCYA: anu gnwa sau?
AKO: naaa, like, i keep falling faster. I waited all my life, to cross this line, to the only thing that's true. WAHAHA.
CONSENCYA: kanta kamo un.
AKO: uu lam ko. mali pa nga ata lyrics.
CONSENCYA: ewan, ok lang un at least my sense.
AKO: o cya, advise mo na ko. hmf, meh feelings ba ko talga kay straw? namimiss and mamimiss ko b tlga cya s college? ayw ko b tlga cya kalimutan?
CONSENCYA: ayan k nnmn, nagddeny k nnmn meh feelings ka, SUS, halos alm n nga ng lahat na meh feelings ka din sknya e.
AKO: anung DIN???
CONSENCYA: dba gs2 ka non?
AKO: ewan. d ko lam.
CONSENCYA: che bahala k nga. dba kaya k nmn nhulog, dahil s feelings nya?..na ewan mo kng totoo? pero sa tingin ko totoo. makakapagcnungaling ba un ng ganong katagal.
AKO: eh basta....
CONSENCYA: e bat nahulog ka? d k naman basta nahuhulog e.
AKO: onga no.
CONSENCYA: e haynku, bsta s tingin ko, labs mo n tlga un. KAYA cguro ayw mo kalimutan, kahit non pa n hurt k s mga nkkita mong pnaggagawa nia. sabi nga ni jewel, nkakagawa k ng stories n poems mo dahil malungkot ka. ANALYZE ko nga, onga no. d ko napancn puro naddeds mga story mo. chaka bsta.. haluz lahat sad ending.
AKO: e... dun lang kz msrp magsulat.. pagmalungkot...kramihan nga ng iba kong nagawa, nasulat ko dhl s pagkainis, pagkalungkot kay straw. sob.
CONSENCYA: ganon. haynku. e d mahal mo n nga.
AKO: yata.
CONSENCYA: ows. anung yata? mahal mo e.
AKO: ewan ko nga.
CONSENCYA: bat b puro ka ewan, bilis, sbhin mo na, issecret pa, ako dn naman ikaw. ulul.
AKO: eh
CONSENCYA: d mo mahal.
AKO: mahal ko no.
CONSENCYA: o.. nahuli dn kta. ungas k dn. so un, meh feelings k nga! and i think, mamimiss mo nga cya s college. hmm, tma ka, yaw mo nga mkameet ng ibng tao, kz, gs2 mo c STRAW prin. kala ko b gs2 mo ng kalimutan? e bat nag iinarte k dyang ayw mo na. d mo kaya?
AKO: yea. para kz meh pumipigil na wag ko n kalimutan. hayaan k n lng daw na mawala ang feelings ko ng kusa para mas mdali dba. saya saya p nmn ng feeling ko ngaun. waehehehehe.
CONSENCYA:tama hmm, pero lam mo, tma dn ung cnbi mo s taas, mag open k s mameet mong tao, bka humigit pa un kay straw, na lalong mkkpagpahappy sau.
AKO: yea.. i think. pero sa ngaun, wala pa.
CONSENCYA: ows? e pano kng bglang dumating ang 2nay n prince charming mo?
AKO: waaa sna c straw?
CONSENCYA: hehe, wish ko nga rin sana cya nga wahahahaha. haynku. bsta, kaya mo yan. i know u could get over it. face it.
AKO: salamaszs. hehe. pero yea... bsta mag oopen aku, pero pag wlang dumating na iba, pero nkalimutan ko cya... hay wla nnmn akong inspiration. ehehe. pero i think, d ko cya mkakalimutan tlga. C CG b nung ntpos ung feelings ko s knya, nkalimutan ko?? NDE. i mean, nde ko cya nkalimutan, literally, kz we're like friends now. O DBa, e d pag nkalimutan k n c Straw e d, prang gnun rin bagsak nun. hehhe.
CONSENCYA: just do ur thing... sa tingin ko, s dme b nmn ng dude sa mapua, d mo pa kaya mkalimutan c straw?
AKO: iba pa rin ang nkikita lang dude, sa nkakavives na dude.
CONSENCYA: onga. hay. anu kya mngyri sau? sa ngaun boto prin ako kay straw. chmpre, ako IKAW. eh d labs ko dn cya. HEHEHE.
AKO: T_T che bhla k nga.

zzzzzz. well ok, it's off, i've been analyzing things and it's over. siomai, muka nkong straw. @_@
wahehehe. hay nko tma n nga. npabayaan ko n priestess ko sa ragnarok. 2 stinkin' lvls to go at d nko msydong mag aadik s ragna. hehe. un lang tlga habol ko e, kht mkaisang 99 lng aku auz na. UU nmn no, sayang pera ko, nawaldas ipon ko dahil s hinayupak n ragna n yan. pero memorable yan.... bket kaya?! secret. /e4 /gg /kis

ciao.

Heard

zzzz. wake up dude. I'm here. hey, how's it all going here? a lot of days passed. Well yeah, this pass few days i was sooooo like jinxed. First, i got this dizzy-thingy at the mall wit my 2 closest friends, Neri and Abel. I spoiled our trip. OH MY. yeah, i was so weary and dizzy, i want to collapse.... ugh.

2nd, the hell, there's this new patch at pRO. What in the world! I was not able to download it. It took me 2 days to finish!! sheeesh! ahhh.

oh well, who the hell cares. ANywei, *winks got something... a poem. My words.. my thoughts... for straw. *ehem


Heard

Parting our days, I want to hold on
Letting go, would be my saddest dawn
I wanna hear the memories we've kept
Even though a lot of times we really were deaf

Unknowing things as they pass by
lead on to this trembling sudden goodbye
people tell me, just live on and forget
for i'll find another, not a regret

unknowing that they don't really know
doesn't matter if i have no reason to show
but i do love you now, so how could i leave?
yet, you still don't hear how much i grieve

Locking and forbidding myself, telling not to slip
not a word, not a feeling, not a tear to drip
why do i intend to keep it all within me?
I lie, yet a hypocrite, i don't wanna be

I remember when i take that simple glance
devours me to lament, to smile, even be sad by chance
how i'll miss everything i do against you, sometimes
how i can't take off my thoughts without you on the lines

i see myself running away from your presence
still i don't want to be judged and be sentenced
i just wanna know, if you'll hear me that time, til that moment someday
til our paths crosses again, wish you'll hear the perfect words that i'll say.

FLushed by the flash

FLushed by the Flash

hey got new stuffs but it aint no quizzes okay, it's some kind of mind reading thingy. the hell, could the computer read my mind? I don't know if it'll work on you guys, better check it out: The Magic Card trick

hmmm, this is another mind thingy but it's somewhat like a hypnotizing thingy, don't take it seriously, just relax... and focus. Hey it made me scream and laugh, Hypnotic experiment no.3

....okay that's that.... i got to play something, its not ragnarok okay. see me at yahoo pool or yahoo chess. HAHA. yesterday i got 20-5 winning scores on chess. \m/ but in pool... ohh my wins are just merely luck hehehhe. anywei.. got to scoot my way out.

ciao.

insoMiAc

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Cause I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl

i can't believe i just wrote that lyrics. Hollaback girl! haha. lol. well, the beat is somewhat..hmmm... funny. I don't know. hehehe.

the hell what's wrong me?! God, you know I'm turning into a zombie. I don't know. I'm like a dead person that could live without sleep. UNDEAD. I don't know if i have an insomiac or somethin' it's been a long WORTH while since i've been sleepin' so late. It's either i'm on a movie marathon or playing and hanging out by my computer.

what's on?
*sheeesh, for cryin' out loud, i already said it up there, oh u know, movies and computer. or sleeping i guess.
what's wit the freakin' pc anywei?
*sheeeesh again, RAGNAROK...heck! bat i'm just hanging 'round there, well, i'm on with my `cLangcLang.. hehe. my BlackSmith.. a forger.. a vendor.. well hey, i get to meet fellow Blacksmith's out there who's also bored. Yeah, including Abel... hehe, we hang out in the middle of the stupid early early early morning. AND HELL I HATE IT. Well do you think I am enjoying the stupid late night stay out? *tsk tsk I ain't no hollaback girl and i don't even know what that hollaback mean. @_@

Hmmm anywei, let's get real. OH NOW I'M THINKIN' SOMEWHAT TWICE, but i've made up my mind okay! oh u know, bout MAPUA. HMMM. CG, a friend from-way-too-out-of-my-place talked wit me. Chatted i mean. Well, he asked me bout my college school. I said, Mapua of course. The hell he said: huh Mapua? talga? *gosh sayang talino mo bat don? Yeah somethin like that. I think, Mapua for him is a way-too-ugly-college. Well, he's insisting me to back up! And go to UST instead, not because of HIM, also going there, well he said because of my future's sake! WAAAAAAAAA. Mejo nairita ako sakanya ng konte don! AMP AMP AMP! Minaliit pa MAPUA e don n nga pnka malufet ang enginneering! AMP AMP! But... Oh well, i kinda think of transfering when I hated things in Mapua, like yeah... the MALAYAN thingy goin on. BUT... OH MY what if... what if... the US call suddenly pops? And.. we'll be goin... flyin'... out here. Then my grandpa will insist me to go to some college in US. WAAAAAA!!!!! I know it's so kewl to go there, but i think i can't handle the peeeepz!
*okay IM JUST DREAMIN. It aint real okay. hehehe. BUT WHAT IF? @_@

now..hmmm... what to accomplish this vacation (and i think i still aint complishing anythin):
1.buy a new cellphone.
2.finish my highschool scrap book.
3.get a haircut.
4.sleep early (but i can't waaaa!)
5.complete my +8 priest equips in pRO. wahahahah. (@_@ it's near... man i can feel it. i only have one equip to go. +8monk hat that worths 60-70m... whatta a rip off! and of course, my extra gears. like my pipe. and i'm wondering if i'm gonna use an elven ears or a blinker...like Elven ears is cheaper and kewl or rather should i pick a blinker w/c best suits my name, b.l.i.n.d ...blah i don't know. I'll decide after the monkhat)
6.be a lvl 99.....or just a lvl96+, that'll do. ^-^
7.FORGET ABOUT STRAW? ASA. nde no. gusto ko kusa mawala. yeah forgetting bout him would be so.... like.... breaking my......computer!!!!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!! hahaha lol. SO.... I would just let it slip away automatically. AS IF. AYOKO tlga kalmutan parang nkakaMISS. parang meh kulang. @_@
8.buy lots of new clothes.
9.lessen my addiction to that stupid ragnarok!
10.WRITE A STORY... a story that would suit my contentment and happiness bout life... bout love... oh i don't know, basta ung malulupitan ako.

>>>> Well saying honestly, I wrote this Waterfall thing when i was in 3rd year. People told me that they were amazed. WAPAK! Binasa ko ng paulit ulit, hanep, ewan parang wlang dating sakin ung waterfall na un. @_@ well among the poems and stories i wrote... these are the top 5 which i liked most:
1. Class Prophecy - yeah it reminds me of the whole batch of my highschool life. Well, hindi ko cya cnulat ng solo, this was a combined ideas by Jeff, Ian, Maan and me. RIGHT. I remember when i was reading it back on our Prom'05 ...hahha... i can't believe it was me speakin' out there by the juniors, the seniors, the teachers... the crowd. HECK.. feel na feel ko, pero kabado. laway ko pa natalsik. wahahahha. lol.
2. THE END - it was for my MOM. I miss her so much. Yeah, including my Lola. sigh. How i wish we are a complete family right now. EH d sna meh ka-kwentuhan ako kay STRAW! malufet magbigay ng advice nanay ko e! ...e kaso pag andyan c lola, nako baka masapak ako non! TALANDE KANG BATA KA! but it's okay, i love them so much. IT's just a fault that, i've never ever said my I LOVE YOU to my nanay. *sob AND... yea i've said I LOVE YOU to my LOla in greeting cards which i make. hehehe. d bale magkkita kita parin kame. I'll make u guys proud! Like what the movies said... C'MON AND MAKE YER MOMMA PROUD! haha.
3. THE FIRST AND LAST DANCE- ayan!!!! heck konti lang nkabasa nian. nde na publish *sob. EWAN KO BA inspired na inspired ako dyan, dati pa yang story na yan nung 3rd yr pako. hanep na bura pa sa pc ko. wala 2loy ako copy. shet. hehehe.
4. THE FIREWALL - AMP!!!!!!! yan nagpanalo sakin ng 2nd place sa UP TALAHASAAN! i also have no copy. weehehehe. but i liked it. It's a youth story. Bout a youth who should have hope in everything. basta short story na nde ko namalayan na..... AMP! @#!?@#!$ 2nd place!
5.REVELATION - slash geeee geeee weeeeee. STRAW this is for u MAN! *winks.
If only you would unbreak the puzzle I’m keeping…
There’s so much revelation, I am foreseeing
But how could you see? How could I say?
Long lost words linger me, blurred into gray.

heheheheh.... okay okay. don't you think this post is long enough to fill up my missed days? *blink *blink

....ANGAS
....PERA
....DAHAS
....ROK\m/

....ciao =^.^=

the waves

uhm. kewl. I like this day. *winks things are like... OKAY. way-too, two-thumbs up. Well, me and my peepz, yeah my friends, went to water camp, AGAIN. This time, it's different. The last time i went, yea it's like fun too, though, oh i don't know, this outing invaded my mind with a different wave.

FIRST. Yeah, i was somewhat bored and feeling lame at home and to go somewhere else. Nerilyn invited me, at first i was not that sure.. because, yeah.. i was feeling so lame. LAMERZ. Abel pleaded me to come too. THen he said, it sounds corny but meaningful... he said to me, "tayong group of friends ^_^ di ba ikaw pa naman nagsbi nde msya pag kulang." hehehe. Corny pero touching diba.

NEXT. So, i went into my nerves. I was tolerated. Oh well. IT might be fun. I wore my new sneakerz. haha. i like the way i walked with it. haha... wala lang. Then, we reached the place. Saw bunch of friends... families. I find it warm. OH NOT the feeling of hot and drenchy thirst-quaking feeling... I mean... WARM inside. Maybe... i was strucked. I miss our family gatherings. In ALabang... where the GARCIA's are always hanging out in times of Christmas and New Year. YEah, i miss that... My cousins... relatives... THE MONEY =).... my crush. WAPAK. meh crush kz ako don. pero d ko insan a. HEHEHE. pero occasional crush lang. ^_^

NEXT to NEXT. *rewind. SO, we were smimming and hanging by the pool... Neri whispered. "Jozel natatakot ako." I asked, why. She said, she heard her lola said, "Ginawa ko tong handaan na to, para kahit wala na ko, maaalala nyo ko." Yeah... scary like a... premonition. But i told her not to be scared, telling her, "Hindi magkakatoo un. Wag ka magicp ng ganyan." *sigh. But you know, i really hate words like that, oh you know, giving premonitions. IF I WAS HER, well i would feel the same.

END. bummer... party's over. Before that, iZZ's crew and the guys of our class went also. Too bad they didn't swim. and of course, TOO gOoD that Jerome was with them telling me some news bout somethin' ....never mind. =)

...then of course, we waved goodbye in FULL THANKS...to Neri's family and tropz... to the waves of that Evening dawn. AWWW love that word. EVening dawn. Sounds kewl and relaxing. Like... elegant. *winks

...BTW we're planning NEXt. Hmmm. ENCHANTED KINGDOM... lol. how i wish it could happen. Our budgets our crumpled, we got no G's man! lol.

...and my mind's crumpled still thinkin of STRAW whoah not again!

...well... my body's crumpled too and i need to sleep. It's like i'm so dizzy. SHeesh it's 1:30 am! Another hour and i would lose my control. Like my brain's gonna explode losing all the nerves for short, BANGAG nanaman ako.

*so, door close. ciao.

blurred and bored

er.

Fixin' few stuffs here in my online crib... got new craps and words, quizzes for Christ' sake. It's just that i'm so bored and i want to express my boredom. *yawn

here u go...

Your Japanese Name Is...

Rai Konoe

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English

20% Yankee

10% Dixie

10% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Irish Name Is...

Avril McGrath

What's your Irish Name?

*snore....

*winks... ciao

cold cold heart

I tried so hard, my dear, to show
that you're my every dream
Yet you're afraid each thing I do
Is just some evil scheme

A memory from your lonesome past
keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

Another love, before my time,
made your heart sad an' blue,
and so my heart is paying now
for things I didn't do

In anger, unkind words are said
that make the teardrops start
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
And melt your cold, cold heart?

There was a time when I believed
that you belonged to me
but now I know your heart is shackled
to a memory

The more I learn to care for you
the more we drift apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

......hey! I'm here for another song again. it inspired me again. It's a new song... i found it in some galore thingy... BASTA. I'm up to songs right now, not like before, i always post some fishy quizzes. HEHE. If you know me.... you'll understand and get the catch on why i like the song. HMMM. You know, i am really astonished in the things i hear today. I don't know what to do. As if some foolish burst out of nowhere making me a FOOL or something. Blah! A while ago i ask an advce from a friend. He's Aaron. I asked him things bout lovin' oh yeah, tellin me that... for him, love will come naturally. I shouldn't go for guys who doesn't understands me. I shouldn't go for guys who doesn't make me smile. I should go for guys who loves and understands me. I should go for guys who makes my every single snap happy. RIGHT. Yeah, somethin' snap out of after he said that. he's right. SIGH. BUT WHAT ABOUT STRAW?! like duh... i can't just dump him. YEAH he does make me smile. YEAH he understands me. BUT YEAH he also brings the frown out of me. AGAIN SAYING, IF ONLY HE KNEW.

AS IF. I also taught of somethin, well... a lot of girls really do mean their feelings to their crushes or somethin. HUH. BUT me. I mean, literally, i don't say my feelings to that someone, I DON'T SAY A WORD STRAIGHT UNLESS not until the person will say the magic word too. SHUCKZ. DAYDREAMING eh? EH PANO KUNG PREHO KME NG STYLE? ASA. WHy should i carry the problem? I'm a girl! like ABEL said, nde ako ASA. Baliktad. SIgh. ACK! KUNG PDE KO LANG SBHN NG DARECHO LAHAT E. MEH PACODE NAME CODE NAME PA KZ NLALAMAN. T_T

oh well...

die if u want 2 know.

and para kay STRAW... paki linaw plz. bad 3p aku sa malabo. kng ayw mo sakin paki sabi na. Kung gs2 mo skn... wag mo na palabuin. tsk...tsk...

A memory from your lonesome past
keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind
and melt your cold, cold heart?

The Right kind of Wrong

The Right Kind Of Wrong


I know all about,
Yea about your reputation
And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Every time that I'm with you, ah
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can fight it any more
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Lovin you, That isn't really something I should do
I shouldn't wanna spend my time with you ya
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Ya, baby you're the right kind of wrong

It might be a mistake
A mistake I'm makin'
But what your givin I am happy to be takin
'Cause all that will make me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms

They say your somethin I should do without
They don't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Lovin you, That isn't really something I should do
I shouldn't wanna spend my time with you ya
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Ya, baby you're the right kind of wrong

I should try to run but I just can't seem to
'Cause every time I run your the one I run to
Can't do without what you do to me,
I don't care if I'm in to deep yeah


....................HEY! that one up there is a song. OKAY. I like it. wanna hear it? check it out: The Right kind of Wrong ^_^

Well hey, i'm really runnin' out of time. I've already enrolled *right. July somethin' is our freakin' first day of classes. I also have a crib to live in... like a dorm or somethin. I think Abel is goin to hang out by that place to. *sigh

Hmmm, i'm tryin' to resist ragnarok ya know... and i think i am doin' it. BUT I'm MISSING it! hahaha! OF COURSE... I'm missing straw. i wonder if i'm ever goin to see him again. WISH SO. ANd i also wanted to tell everythin RIGHT NOW. BUT STILL, oh yeah... i CAN't. I don't know. I just can't. Maybe i'm not really not just the type of girl who speaks out her heart. Maybe i'm the kind of girl who keeps everythin' deep inside. That's why i'm feeling the pain. WOAH! maybe not. because almost everybody knows WHO IS STRAW. hahaha. AND I THINK, even he knows who's he?! wak! DON't care, at least he's still not gettin any confirmations. MAN! i wonder what could happen in collge? Oh you know.... would i find someone new? WAAAAA AYOKO gs2 ko cya parin. HAHAHa. KUNG ALM MO LANG KZ E. T_T ack.

but yea, baby... ARE YOU or AM I the right kind of wrong?

Troubled.

waaa. hey. I'm troubled right now okay... shuckz, i can't concentrate playing ragnarok. That's why i left it BoT MoDe. HEHE. yeah, I miss someone. OF COURSE IT's straw. WAA. It's always him. Still saying, IF ONLY HE KNEW EVERYTHIN'!

Hmmm. college is near. I'm scared and thrilled?! Okay. Get to meet new peepz. But what i'm scared bout is... not about the peepz out there okay, it's the place... the way i will go there. I DON't know how to get there ALONE. I already have the plan on living wit my friends near our colleges. WAAA. and... Mapua's enrollement in CE is on APril 15. so near huh?! TRI-SEM... waaa! how would i manage to leave wit a tri-sem univ? I AM A VACATION MANIAC!

uhm.. i love my current layout. I MEAN IT. AS IN LOOOOVE. I WILL BE A FOOL! RIGHT! i would be a fool for STRAW like in kinda things:

1. fool on not telling what i feel
2. fool on being scared of our parting
3. fool on locking my feelings and forgetting you
4. fool on not portraying what i feel
5. fool on not noticing how much u care

AHHHH! is it a negative or a positive? HECK! anywei... me and my friends had a hang out by a resort yesterday. Like it was kewl... i wonder if i get to those stuffs and see them again on college. I know it can happen...

oh hey btw, read this stuff... it's creepy.

Message: Subject: UE SCANDAL
Message: i have a story to tell.....
i was a college freshman...
during my first sem. i had this
experience.....

i have a class in the comm.dept.,,,we had a group
presentation....so we reserved the auditorium.......

when we got in,the lights were already
turned on
and i dropped my bag and set up my
laptop while
the others fixed the projectors and the
posters.....we noticed that one of our
group
member was not around....i looked for her
outside
and i saw her sitting on a bench..she was
having
a
smoke and looked pale...i let her in the
audi cause
the teacher was on her way....she didnt
want to
come in.she revealed to me that she can
see
ghosts and other supernatural beings that
no on
else can.......

according to her...there was a girl at the
ceiling
that kept on laughing and was pointing at
me...she
said she follows me around,and kept on
swinging
from beam to beam.....

as we reached the door,she grabbed my
arm.i
saw
that there was a wet puddle right next to
my bag
on the chair.suddenly something small
fell from the
ceiling and landed on the puddle,it was
a
drop of
liquid.she told me not to look up the
ceiling...but i
was curious...as i looked up i saw a girl
with black
ragged clothes,she has yellow teeth as if
she
didn't
brush her teeth since she was born,she
has long
unruly hair that looked like it cant be
brushed no
matter how you try.she was mocking and
was
laughing at me...she kept on pointing at
me.she
was drooling,and her drool was color
yellow and it
has an awful smell,it was slimy.i got my
things
and
went out of the room,i threw away the
bag
that
has
her drool on it.i didnt want any memories
of what
happened that day.but i kept seeing her
in my
room.i didn't know what to do.i found out
later that
before the school stood there,it was a big
house.she lives in the big house and her
father
didn't want her to go out of their mansion
so she
was locked in a room,she died and her
body was
not found,some say she became
crazy,some say
her body was in the walls of the room and
she
loves to play on the ceiling wandering
around,swinging.the room later on
became the
comm.dept of the school.

i realized that she wanted to let the
people know
what happened to her,because when i
began to
tell
people,she didn't visit me in my room
anymore.the
problem is that the person i told about
her
also
have to spread her story.


so post this message again and also send
it to
other people..if u ignore this and just
read
it,she
will visit you in your room and follow u
wherever
you
will go by swinging on the ceiling.don't
ignore
this,u
dont want to see her face.....BELIEVE
ME......you'll regret it.....keep on sending
and
posting NOW...u must be done after an
hour or
else....

NOW WHAT?
heck i'm out.

hey.

sssskewl's out. graduation's over. Yeah last April 3. I forgot to write to yah. Well, i'm damn exausted okay. HEHE. ANywei, here's another sitch... quizzes... hehe ung iba malabong ako ^_^


You are the warrior girl.You are the type
that can start a fight and win.You are very
strong and can beat anyone up (but just don't
^_~) and some people can be afraid of you but
alot of people admire your strength and want to
be just like you well the people that want to
fight.You can defend yourself very easily and
can probably handle some kind of weapon.You
have a short temper and get angry
easily but you can be really nice at times
^_^and once a fighter always a fighter.


If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
brought to you by Quizilla

you represent the dreams in life. you are laid back
and also dream alot.


What part of life do you represent?
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IN VAIN

stubborn. dimmed. shadowed. Things are getting weirder and weirder for me. I am desperate. I want to search for something. An inspiration. A voice that would clear up everything. A soul that could diminish all the sadness in me.

Mind's getting stuck up and it's like a dizz. My family... suffocating a problem. Who keeps on thinkin' and carrying the thing? Me. Who tries to realize everything to make things clear? Me. I AM SO CONFUSED. My thoughts are low. I can't think of a MOVE. I CAN'T MOVE. Why? I don't know. Maybe I am in vain... pretending that I could carry the burden all along alone.

Alone? I think. My sister's like a carefree person... yeah i know she's too young to realize things. Of course she would be dependent because there's someone to lean on. I remembered her saying to me, "Ate wag ka na umalis dito pagcollege ka. Hindi ko kaya." I was... thinking twice, if i would continue my plans trying to be independent in an apartment wit my friends at college. What would my family be... when i already leave? Would we have a gap or something? OR WOULD I HAVE THE GAP on them?

I am so foolish, that i don't know, what to do. I wanted to tell everything i feel to my sister... I don't know if she would listen to me. IF SHE WOULD MARK MY WORDS. HEY sis, our family's about to blow.... what's up?! Yeah... But i can't exactly.. rightly, say that. I don't know if she would get every single thing clear. I while ago... I mean this last minute, before i had type this fishy tag, we had a fight. I AM TRYING TO SAY "THE PROBLEM" to my sister, i think she's not really interested. She explained to me what our dad said. Uhuh... yeah, brainwashed... she was so young that she couldn't get every snap of it. I also tried to ask my lolo bout "the problem" he did some smiling thingy... and some words... then he couldn't answer... then my dad popped out his words and he did the explaining.. he smiled at lolo... MAN! I AM NOT THAT STUPID TO KNOW WHAT"S behind THAT smile and reasons! Father's giving me a brainwash in defending lolo.... Do you think i wouldn't get what they meant?! MAN PEOPLE! IF ONLY YOU KNEW WHAT"S THE PROBLEM! The only people who knew my prob is my closest friends, NEri, Abel and Charm. SO going back to me and my sister's fight, i taunted her lots of times... trying to shout... "BAHALA KA NA PAG WALA AKO.. WALA PAKIALAMAN.....WAG MO MASABI SABI SAKIN NA D MO KAYA. BAHALA KA." yeAH, somewhat like that. ANd she shouted back. "OO.. talaga, pagdadasal ko pa. THANK YOU." As if she's talking sarcastic. If only my sister feels what i feel. I was really hurt. She doesn't know how hard it is for me... ASA KASI PALAGI. She doesn't know how to feel being depended on and being the carrier of the burden. MAN! Ah!i don't know what to say... I am so irritated right now...

Heads up... til then....

Suntok sa buwan! Suntok sa buwan!

waaa.. right now, i'm really addicted to that song. AH! oh u know why. HEHE. hey, guess what?! God's miracle is really on my side... MAN! ang laking 2long talaga ng pagoorasyon ko nung Easter Sunday. hehehe.... TOP 3 ako waaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! beh top 9 ako tpos sulong sa top3?! OMG! can't believe this! i swear i thank GOD so much. BUTI n lng d ako nagpabaya nung 3rd yr.... if ever... nakupo! lagpak ako sa top 10! heheh!

anywei...

don't know what to say. I just loOoVe Suntok sa Buwan. I'm surely related to it... man. IF ONLY STRAW KNEW EVRYTHING.............. but i swear i can't tell.

so what?!

i would get hurt?!

nahhhh...

let it be....

kewl down!

You're a God

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say

Never again no
No never again

[Chorus]
'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow

Never again no
No never again

[Chorus]

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again

[Chorus]

............hey. it's good friday. Goodie goodie, what do i have to say now? well i don't know, i'm sorta inspired.

This morning, i mean noon.. WELL I ALWAYS WAKE UP LATE. HEHE. uhm, i've watched a movie.. it's somewhat like a Dracula thingy. An old movie. yeah. That's why it's like somewhat classical.. oh yah know... the effects... well i was some kinda touched with Count Dracula HEHE. He's crying... yeah. Because of the 1 and only 1 OH YEAH... woman he had ever loved, MIna. Mina, is just a reincarnation of the REAL lady he had fallen for. Sadly, She died through a tragic accident. Dracula was depressed... or i don't know what happend.. i think it was because of him. That's why he cursed himself and became a vampire searchin' for somethin, searchin' for an answer. Yeah. A lot more years later, He was reawaken... [well i ain't gonna tell u the whole story ok] He went to london to search. Back then, he was really pale and OLD. But, to look good and unsuspicious, he rejuvinated himself.. like younger. He, then so a lady... it was Mina, a reincarnation. Well yeah, they met, they talked, they had a conversation.. a chat... became friends... had a relationship... until MIna was obssessed wit him. Well, at the ending of the movie, OF COURSE, dracula was to be hunted and executed. Well yeah, it did happened, but Mina was there protecting him... even though it was too late... Dracula has been slashed on the neck and was stabbed on the heart. Yeah, they were crying at each other. SHe even kissed him [MAN... he had blood on his mouth.. HECK! that's nasty!] Then... there was a cross on top of them and it was like shining at their cursed body. His pale face was rejuvinated and it was like his bad bad bad soul was vanished onto the oblivion. Mina stabbed him harder. BUT INSTEAD of his face feeling more pain, he was smiling at her... as if HE was happy that SHE was there until the end.. until he found the answer. tears fell...... Mina cut his head off...... and it was finally an unquestionable end. WELL I DON't know, i like the plot and evrything.

Yeah, and a while ago, uhm.. this evening I've watched Bruce Almighty AGAIN. hmmm for the 4th time i think, well, DI NAMAN AKO NAGSASAWA. GANDA KZ. Realizing... hmmm.. medjo pasenti ako ngaun... UHM, not all wishes or DREAMS are A YES to evrything. GET IT? It's not always YES. YES could be a tragedy. Before saying yes... think about it. ANd of course, talking bout love. YOU CAN"T make a person love you. It's their free will. SO LET IT BE. It's the matter of deciding. IF FATE DECIDES it's the two of you.. well then.. it's the two of YOU. WEHEHEH. WALA LANG. MASARAP LANG MAG CONTEMPLATE ngaun. wala lang.. gnagaya ko lang sabi sa TV. HEHEH. Halleluia! rOk u GoD I Luv YAH! Your will be done!

HEY...

new layout. dark again! of course....
oh guess what? I've passed MAPUA. yeah i thought i was goin to mess up that test! ahhhh! besideds that, Well yesterday was somewhat ALRIGHTY!

Yeah, i forgot to post this thingy, i ran out of internet card.... hehe.
Well, Nerilyn, Charm, Jewel, Abel, Kenneth, Me and ALBERT, went to McDo. BTW, ALbert is an old friend of Neri, Charm and Jewel. Yeah, he was somewhat... FUN. HE PLAYS RAGNAROK too. HEHE! We've crave our way to hang out, EATING. I don't know what to say but.. I KNOW IT WAS REALLY KEWL. Yeah, this ain't the first time, WE hanged out.. but... i don't know what to say.. it was somewhat different. HEHEHE. wala lang.

So what did i still miss? Oh yeah, our CAT grad! yey hell's crackin' down.... CAT's no more!

But of course, my blanked BLIND head-over-heart mind is still on a mess. You want to know? UHM, secret.... but if i'm goin to tell you, OMG it's goin to be a drama. Yeah, sharin' my sadness..... well my answer to that problem for now is COLLEGE and AMERICA. Why huh? If Our papers would be fixed early or sooner... Man, I could fly off and so, of my BLIND head-over-heart mind. COLLEGE could be an answer too... Man I could be far away from "that-who" problem.. and within a snap.. BUHBYe, i forgot.

...but i know everythin' would be hard... come what may.... yeah my unfading quote...
come what may... so, now what?

FADE OFF!

hey just hangin round.... check this thing out, i got this quiz from ate YAnn's bloggy... MAN, half of me is a MAN! aaaaa! just click it if u wanna know yerz... kewl DOWN!

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

seee that?! and check this age thingy too! Well... exactly my result was SO RIGHT!

You Are 17 Years Old

17 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

HMMM! yeah. now... this is the last stuff. Who's the perfect guy for me? HEHE? and he's.......


He looks so cute in that black jacket. He's
even holding your hand. While you jump on his
back. Just like a piggy back ride. He looks
like a bad boy but, he isn't. When he meets you
his whole life will change:)


Who's Perfect For You???
brought to you by Quizilla

Suntok sa Buwan


HIndi mo ba alam
Ang dami kong pinagtakpan?
PAg ksama ka'y .... sUntok sa buwan
hindi mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga iyong tignan
wag kang gnyan wLang pupuntahan

oh di ko toh gusto....

kya wag kang lalayo....

[Chorus:]
Itanong mo sa akin, tatanungin ko rin
kung ika'y aamin, lahat ay ggwin
Itanong mo sa akin, tatanungin ko rn, kung ika'y aamin
lahat ay ggwin.....

Hindi mo nppncn, kailangan mo akong dinggin
Hindi habang buhay, ika'y aantayin
ito'y aking hiling
kaya sana nmn ay tanggapin
ng puso ko'y di nabibitin

oh d ko toh gusto

kaya wg kang lalayo...

....BLAH. yey, HI! SUntok sa Buwan! Yeah! Like that song... man! Have u read evrythin'? The lyrics...? LIKE IM SO RELATED TO IT. and this line...

Hindi mo nppncn, kailangan mo akong dinggin
Hindi habang buhay, ika'y aantayin
ito'y aking hiling
kaya sana nmn ay tanggapin
ng puso ko'y di nabibitin

WEEE! T_T Well, it explains as what it says, Hindi habang buhay ika'y aantayin NAKZ! yeah, all people, as we know, IS NOT MERELY waiting all the time. MAN! All things has their ends! Not all the time.... we serve to be waiting. NAH UH! Oh you know what i mean.

"oh d ko toh gusto

kaya wg kang lalayo..."

........buzz....kewl down.

3 to 17th!

OH MY! It's my birthday! haha! March 17! and I'm 17? HELL YEAH! OH MY....well, my budz and me hang around my place. Do you want me to enumerate them? OKAY!

1. Nerilyn - A LOT AND THANKS! There are a lot of things which I wanted to thank you. I can't find the exact words... We've shared each other's feelingsss,expreiences, sadness... Yeah. And today, As i turn my 17th shine in this cold world... I hope this wouldn't be the last party I'm goin' to be wit yah! oh you know... college.. or IF I'm goin' to America.. that's only IF!

2. Abel- THE HELL WIT YOU! MY KISSES AND THANKS! You always make me smile. Even though you're sometimes... uhm... not that funny. HEHE. (anu pa ba tawag don.. corrn..y?hehe) JOKE! Well, you're always there! You're just like a brother to me! you roK man! I wonder if I could find another guy like you! Just like You whom I run to exactly on the time I'm feeling down....thanks MAN! You ROK!

3. JP - CHEERS BUD! You're my 1 and only DO-Re-MI! ah yeah! You make my life so musical... the ups and downs... the funny things we do. The hyper things.. the cries.. you're chizmiz. MAN! I'm sure I'm gonna miss all that! AND MOST OF ALL... YOU MAN!

4. CHArm- GirL! MY BoN! Luv Yer thoughts! You always help me with you're advices... sa pagpapahiram ng CD! To your smiles and thingys! To your songs! your dances... dirrrty. HEHEH. MAN! Where could I ever find another charming buddy like CHARM?

5. Jewel- HEY!!! My WEBBBY GIRL! THANKS! HEY! I hope this party wouldn't be the last... and if ever... SEE YOU ROUND ON THE NET..! THANKS for your cute words that's so crazzzzy! At times when I'm serious, and you've spotted me... and you say your Funny words, I can't help but laugh! I'm sure gonna miss it! You're the most insane gurl I've ever known! NOT ON THE OUTSIDE.. BUT ON THE OUTSIDE AND INSIDE?!!!!

6. SARAH, KENNETH, JMIE, ELLAIN, MAAN - fishy! HI TO YAH! Guyz! hope to see you again... IF THERE's another party. SARAH, my boyang my cookie my bud! Thanks for your freakin' LoOve Advices. IT HELPS really. And for our song... "MATA" hehe. KENNETH, my RENO, hehehe KEEP EATIN' LIVERSPREAD POTAH OUR FAVORITE! THANKS sa kalokohan! JMIE, my BRO! the hell thanks for the Sims2... AND for the friendship, I never thought we could be also close! heheh! ELLAIN, my ELEEENNNA, Luv your songs. You're the ones who influenced me the song "MATA" which is now 1 of my supah favah songz! MAAN, my MAANDALE! KEEP PLAYIN' RAGNA! hehehe! Hey, thanks for your time... I really like being wit yah! You're one crazy gurL...!

Well, yeah, almost half of the class did attend. Izz's Crew... SJ's Crew... Jerome, Howell and Renson. CG WHO GREETED ME TOO! KUYA ALLAN! HEHEH! AARON WHO REMEMBERED MY BDAY... heheh! GULAT NGA KO, naalala mo pah! AND OF course, mah family, mah everythin! This party wouldn't be this happy without their help! THE YUMMY FOODS! AHHHH INIHAW NA BABOY! GRBE!!! UHUH. Well chempre, meh isa akong inimbitahan na hindi pumunta. Nakakapagtampo nga eh. IF EVER YOU'LL read this, LAST NA TOH boi.... tpos d ka pa pumunta.... baka wala nako next year! bakit ganon..

OH NEVER MIND... BUZZZZZZ.

SO! maybe i should rock mah BED now! I'm too tired... tomorrow's another day! KEWL DOWN!

hey! tomorrow's my bday! haha! gettin older here... anywei, here's a new quizzie to hook up wit. And here's my result (as usual) hehee... scroll down! ciao!


You like the trouble making types.


What kind of guy are you most attracted to?
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the BLuRRRs of Black 'n' Red

whuttah? HEY NEW LAYOUT! hues of blak and red! gosh, hope it's not that creepy. But i like the way it is. Uhm.. well, i'm kinda NOT OH SO BUSY THESE DAYS. I'm somewhat exempted in the examz. OH YEAH. except for damn Physics. Bummer.

BoO! hey, a while ago.. i was at Neri's criB. yeah we ate and talk. Abel was there... Jmie.. CHarm and Jewel. yeah, we just wasted time happily out there. hehehe. love it. I'm sure i'm gonna miss them. HMMM... will i get to meet those kinda people, in college? Hope so... but i know they're unforgettable and unique. Nothing, could ever replace them. OH YEAH....... shuckz. T_T OH MYYYYYY.... my birthday's near. AHhhhh the creep!!!! I'M GETTING older man! HEHEHE anyweiz... I get to get another level of freedom... hihihihi.

oh welllll... i almost forgot to say, I MISS STRAW! heheheh. ala lang. SHHHHH. KLALA NIU BA UN? THE HELL! nde! HEHEHE. Actually, it's...

do u want me to say it?

KIS MUNA! lol.

g'nyt

i'm totally freaked out!

hey, errrr.... well you know what, i'm sorta tellin' you somethin', i don't know if it's worth believing. well hey i kinda have this... coincidence. Oh i don't know, it kinda happens a lot of times already to me. There are things which I do, that is a purpose for somethin'.... yeah, somethin' that'll happen next. LIKE SIGNS which i don't even know and notice. Really. Yeah I think it's some kinda kewl. But i know you can't understand what i'm sayin. OH NEVER MIND.

MAN! just check this quiz out. WAAA DRACO MALFOY... *drool (ang luvz ko waaa)

You like Romantic
Draco!

Romantic Draco is
well...a dream come true! He will come to sweep
you off your feet like a knight in shining
armour! Polite, refined and very handsome,
Romantic Draco wants nothing more then to woo
you. Throwing aside all inhibitions, he will
tell you he loves you constantly and deny the
wrath of Slytherin for his love of you. He
spends his money freely on you, graces you with
many gifts and writes you romantic poetry! He
is constantly at your side and dreadfully
overprotective!

You love Romantic Draco
because you are a true Romantic at heart!


Which Draco Malfoy would you fall for?
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HANGING BY A MOMENT

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

now.. i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
nothing left to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else...

--------------------
shuckz. yeah right now, i'm sorta listening to that song. well, something struck me. Yeah it's bout my friends. Yeah, I've imagined what will hapen to each of us. Now... that damnedddd College is soooo walking closer to us. Right. How I wish that will be goin on the right paths......

*ehem... I wish that they won't ever EVER forget the times we're together, speakin' and blobbing bout stuffs... Talking AGAINST each other... the times we shed a tear. The times we became and stood out just FOR THE SAKE OF OURSELVES which we call... SELFISHNESS... (hehehe ABEL... NERI... AKO.... matamaan tanga) oh yeah, and of course the time we've spent together roaming around out of nowhere, place to place.... and now that our graduation is slammin' near to us..... until then, I wish you all my sweetest rockin' luck ! Never would I say farewell, i know we'll get to meet again someday. I HOPE THIS WON"T BE THE END... And i know it will never be. I HOPE. 0.o

SO..until there and back again.... ciao.

same day

hey, i'm just checkin' and droppin' by... check this quiz out.. rate your emotions. this is my result...kewl.


You are the Spirit of Innocence. Always with the
sweet smile of a child, you know how to have
good clean fun, you have a natural vunerability
about you, which makes you able to make friends
very well, as they are drawn instinctively by
the urge to protect you. But even though you
look as fragile as a child inside you are very
strong with your easy look on life. When you
get a partner (because there is no way you
cant!) your life will be perfect.


Which stunning spirit of emotion are you?
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Uncracked

Uncrack

well hey. shuckz *_* man... i'm totally not me these past few days. I'm insanely confused on what i feel. waaaaa. i don't understand.... waaaaa. HERE I GO AGAIN! MAYBE I AM falling again. ACk. stop the drama gurl... scram! T_T MAn. I want to crack myself up so that I could know my answer. I am diminished by my blank head. How should I say this? I think I AM SO FALLING FOR "STRAW!" ahhhh. And yet... College is near! WOuld I See him ever ever ever ever again? sheeesh. OH come what may. what gives! anywho, i'm meeting a lot of other dudes out there. RIGHT. But still... i can't imagine. YEAH. I don't know what should i feel. Would I forget him until then? I WANT TO!!! AND YET A WHOLE PART OF ME says NO! MAn... shuckz. What gives dude? When will you leave my mind... my soul... my heart? (waw..lalim non) But you know what, don't want to forget a thing about you. I don't care whatever may happen. I know those things that would occur has their reasons for me to understand. I wonder what would happen. Hmmm.

Anyway!

Wah, graduation's near! April 3! man, time's so fasssst! I don't wanna skate to college! wah. What would happen to me? Would I be so stupid and foolish to understand how to get the hell out there? Would I feel like.... ALONE? NO WAY! huh... what'ver what'ver.... blah. come what may right? Whatever it is.. I should be ready. THIS VACATION... I'm planning a change.

I want to learn some drivin'! alright...kewl.
I want to learn play the guitar... yeahhh music hang out. TO DRIVE MYSELF AWAY FROM THE PC.
Uhm, a make over for myself? Well i don't know. just an improvement of myself i guess. ^_~

RIGHT. sooo.. you see, I'm hangin' by my computer again, and I have 3 quizzes for tomorrow... and.. i'm not yet studyin' HELL NO I'M TIRED... but i should study wah! T_T

greeters go boom... SEE YAH.

reason for that blind mistake

cheers!
nevertheless, this is a new site. MY NEW SITE. new life... right. I've dumped my old one. Yeah, my ringwraith.... oh well. This is my new world. IM SORRY FOR THE SIMPLE LAYOUTS. Got no time to design. yeah, im in a busy busy world at this moment. shuckz. Oh well, The site's name...... ACCIDENTALLY BLIND. uhuh. Why so? Accidentally because... i'm some kinda feeling so ambushed. yeah like... i'm breakin. And the word "blind" because I don't want to see the reason why i'm breakin' ...i don't wanna see things which will spare my wounds.

*stop

now, now... let's get this over with. Seriously, I'm breakin' these past few days. It happened because of my reason. Some filthy reason why I'm acting up strange and confused. RIGHT. I don't know if i commited a mistake or something. I don't know what to feel about that reason. sheeesh. A lot of things are really oh-so-unclear these days. A while ago, Nerilyn, a close friend, told me stories. uhuh. Sad confusiong stories that she feels. I'm some kinda inspired on what she told me. Yeah. She asked me, "why is it that we need to carry the burden of the person we care?"
Yeah i know, it's some kinda rubbish but, i know... we can't help it. we love to "care" more for that person. Yeah, she has a good point.... but why is it? Maybe it's because... that burden she has is the only reason for her to hide her feelings, I mean.... that burden is the only reason THAT can HIDE her feelings. RIGHT. Well so much for that..

*rewind

you know what, i got my own burden. And you know who is it.... it's "Straw!" (cge mamatay kau sa kakaicp kung cnu yon) YEAH. I can't understand really............... I DON'T HAVE AN IDEA. ALL MY MIND AND HEART SPEAKS IS THAT, I am so blurred up. I can't understand. I really want to forget about him. BUT IF I WILL, all the memories I had will be wasted. BAD3PZ. HALOS ARAW-ARAW KO PA NAMAN NAPAPAGINIPAN. amfness. HAHAHA. nabulag bako sa pagiging tanga at nahulog ako don? echoz na buhay toh. @_@ Honga, paki ko ba don? (mahal mo na e) DUH... nde? gulong gulo na nga ko don e (baka pnagtripan ka lang) GANON. well, if that's true... eh d BBYE na talga sa knya. AS IN. I'm not like other girls who would die just to get their man back. Those are losers. oh yeah. Think of it, it's not girls who should run for their guys.... it's the guys thAnG to do that! RIGHT! ah basta... bato ako... bato...

*blah

>>errrr? time to end this now. too long i guess. Well i got carried away. SOOO... g'bye.